Also, confession: On a trip to New York City, I totally went into Tiffany’s and told the clerk my boyfriend (non-existent) and I were getting engaged soon and he wanted me to look at rings. And so I needed to try some on. At Tiffany’s. You know what, though? SOOOOO worth it to have a Tiffany’s ring on my hand.

Thanks!

And I’m loving every minute of it.

Just last night I prayed for you. And I prayed for your husband.

You’re going to be the most amazing wife and mommy someday Amy Beth.

“It’s weird the things that make you jelous sometimes. It can be anything! Sometimes out of the blue! I don’t know why, but I ocassionally check up on one of my old friend’s girlfriend’s Myspace. Don’t ask me why. I guess there’s just always part of me that wants to know what’s going on in their lives (Amy Beth, you know exactly who and what I’m talking about so no judging!). It just seems that without fail I get this feeling every time I type in that URL. It’s a feeling of… well, I don’t really know what to call it. I guess a part of it is jelousy and believe me it’s not because of who she has but maybe because of what she has. Now, DON’T anyone take this the wrong way because I L*O*V*E my life. I really do. I love my husband, my baby girl, my family and friends but I think there will always be this part of me that wonders what it would be like to be that single, beautiful, pre-baby body, pre-marriage relationship girl again. I was looking at the photos she had on her page and there’s one where she’s just standing there all dressed up and looking gorgeous and the caption reads “I enjoy being a girl”. Now my theatre lovin’ mind initially goes to the song from the show “Flower Drum Song” that I actually had played when I tossed my bouquet but then it does the completely human thing of quickly going from one thought to the next, to the next until I came to one far off conclusion: I don’t feel like a “girl”, so to speak, anymore. I don’t think of myself that way anymore and if you ask me at two different times just how that makes me feel, well, you’ll get two very different answers. Ask me right now and I’ll say it’s sad because something deep down inside of me will always want to feel that way again. The other answer will consist of telling you how much I love being a mother and that it doesn’t matter because I have the life I’ve always wanted. And I do. For years most girls dream of getting married and having babies. So why do I get even the tiniest bit jelous when I have everything that most girls my age are wishing so terribly that they could have?

I’ll never be able to answer THAT question. But for me, the grass will only sometimes be greener on the other side. At least until the day when you find out that the other grass has tough soil underneath and truly wishes that she could be as soft and green as you are.”

Now, I know that my feelings were quite the opposite of yours. The point is that there is always someone who wants your life. The grass will always seem greener but we should always appreciate what we have in the here and now.

I love you!

A friend told me great advice I’ve reminded myself of over and over. “Enjoy every season of your life; milk it for all it’s worth.”

Even if the season is longer than anticipated, it is a season and one day it will be gone. So enjoy your time with “the girls.” Be as girly as you want to be! Paint everything pink! Watch all the chick-flicks you want, because one day you find yourself in love with a guy who actually prefers watching wrestling on Friday night! (Don’t say it won’t happen – I did and here I am head over heals for him! ) All kidding aside…

You are making the most of your single life! You’re immersed in serving others and laying down your life for your King. Trust Him, His plans are so much better! And guard your heart so you can enjoy without hesitation all your friends weddings and babies. I’m praying for you! Love you!

i love you dear, and i am so happy that you are willing to wait for the right guy, instead of jumping for the one who thinks, or wants, or even seems to be right.

i just know that God is doing amazing things in your life, and in your future husbands. i’ll be praying for you, and for him.

i love you. you are the best.