I brought my “husband journal” with me on vacation this week, knowing that I’d have some extra time to write in it. I was flipping through it tonight, reading over entries from several years ago and came across a few that I thought you might like a peek at, especially since most of you didn’t “know” me then.

I debated whether or not to post them, not because I didn’t want to but because I wondered if my future Mr. Right would mind. But I think he’ll be okay with these being out there — anything for the interlings, right?

So, enjoy. Or not. We shall see.

I’ve been trying to cultivate things in me that will make me a good wife. And, as much as I hate it, it’s my duty to report that… well, it isn’t working.

The crazy thing is that I do try! I try to fix dinner and end up starting a fire. I make plans to do all the laundry and end up falling asleep on the couch. And so on… yep, it is pretty pathetic.

I suppose you’ll already know all of this by the time you’re reading this. Well, unless I’ve had some kind of domestic miracle. And if THAT happens, I’ll be tearing this page right out of this journal.

I sure hope you know how to cook. And do laundry. And… be the love of my life, of course.

Loving you even now,

amy beth

And then there’s this one, written near Valentine’s Day one year…

Darling,

You are my heart. Red and pinks are all around and I’m only thinking of you. You are my heart.

I can’t wait to hold you and kiss you and smile at you. I can’t wait to want you and know that I’m wanted back. I can’t wait to hold your hand.

I love you even more than you can begin to imagine. You’re beautiful to me already, because I know you’re the one that God has created for me. You’re designed for me and I’m designed for you. We’re going to fit together perfectly. Just wait and see.

amy beth

P.S. – When you kiss me, could you please hold my face in your hands? I’d really like that.

And then lastly…

Darling,

Back from a week at Disney World. Couldn’t help but think of you all the time. They have these new hat things — one is a Minnie Mouse bridal veil and the other is a black Mickey top hat for the groom. Every single time I saw a couple wearing them, I wished we were that couple. Running around, being happy. Being together.

Baby, how is it possible that I already love you so much when I don’t even know who you are yet? You’re changing my world and I’m not sure you’re even in my world yet! Suddenly, everything I do makes me think of you. I trust God’s timing and I know He has my best (and your best) in mind, but I still want to be with you.

When we’re finally together, we’re going to watch chick flicks over and over together. But don’t worry; we’ll make out during the slow parts.

amy beth