{ therefore i will wait for Him. }
On my way home from Memphis, right about three hours from my doorstep, I started crying.
It wasn’t the type of tears that sometimes come from leaving good friends behind or from just being tired after a whirlwind trip; it wasn’t even the ones that can be brought on from coming home to a house that’s perhaps just a bit too quiet.
I was crying because I couldn’t stop thinking about how God loves me enough to wait for me.
I know this might sound crazy, especially from a girl who works in ministry, but I have a confession to make: though I wholeheartedly love God, I have always had a very difficult time accepting Him loving me.
Don’t get me wrong — I know He loves me. Even if He never did another thing for me, never spoke another loving word to me, never even turned His head towards me again ’til I reached heaven, I can still know that He loves me simply based on what His Word tells me.
But that’s just the thing: even though He owes me nothing, He continues to give me everything.
When I run, there He waits, ready to chase me down and carry me home.
When I’m angry, there He waits, knowing it won’t be long ’til I’m ready to work it out.
When I’m silent, there He waits, convincing me that it’s safe to speak to Him.
When I’m lonely, there He waits, staying closer to me than any human ever could.
When I’m afraid, there He waits, promising me that I’m still in His hands.
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And I’m so familiar with the concept of waiting because sometimes it feels that all I do is wait.
I wait for people to come into my life and for others to leave.
I wait for situations to change; for circumstances to be different.
I wait for things — some material, some immaterial — to arrive.
– — –
But now? Now I will wait for Him for He is my portion.
I won’t wait for things to appear because He is my portion.
I won’t wait for situations to change because He is my portion.
And I won’t wait for any particular person to arrive in my life because He is my portion.
{ the Lord is my portion, therefore i will wait for Him. lamentations 3:24 }
Posted: March 18th, 2009 under Uncategorized.
Comments: 16
Comments
Comment from Kelley
Time: March 18, 2009, 3:35 am
Dito with the wow. We all need to remember this!
Comment from Kelli
Time: March 18, 2009, 8:14 am
Beautiful…. just beautiful.
Comment from Lindsay
Time: March 18, 2009, 8:27 am
Great post … and a good reminder for each of us who may be struggling with that issue that just continually creeps up in life … {waiting} 
Comment from Becca @ the Stanley Clan
Time: March 18, 2009, 8:38 am
This is so great – thanks for sharing I am continually just so grateful that God waits for me – even when I’m not following Him/waiting for Him/looking for Him!
Comment from Michelle
Time: March 18, 2009, 9:46 am
just beautiful.
i love your sweet heart AB.
have you ever read the book, “Do You Think I’m Beautiful?” i may have mentioned it to you before, but it’s a must read and deals so much with accepting the love of God as a woman. One of my all time favorites.
Remember that you’re worth the wait. And it’s incredible having all of this alone time with hthe Lord. I hope you’re soaking it up. I think we all daydream about what life will be like when we’re settled with a family, but I love that God is blessing me with the resting period. I think it’s beautiful.
Comment from Julie
Time: March 18, 2009, 9:54 am
Absolutely beautiful and a much need reminder. Thanks you so much for sharing your heart!
julie
Comment from Lindsey
Time: March 18, 2009, 10:00 am
What great thoughts….reminded me of two things that I am constantly working on:
–ACTIVELY waiting; Hannah did this when she was waiting on the birth of her son, Samuel
–Our God is ENOUGH…in EVERY situation.
Love you, sweet sister!
Comment from Shelly W.
Time: March 18, 2009, 10:56 am
Absolutely beautiful. Thank you.
Comment from Andrea@Under Grace & Over Coffee
Time: March 18, 2009, 11:16 am
Waiting is sometimes so hard for me. This verse is an awesome reminder that I can do that, because He is enough. I’m going to go copy that verse down!
Comment from Liz
Time: March 18, 2009, 11:32 am
I also enjoy Psalm 73:25-26, “Whom have I in heaven but you? And there is nothing on earth that I desire besides you. My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.”
I think I’m making it my life verse because I make so many other things my portion, my longing. I desire to long for God alone, and I have to keep coming back to these verses repeatedly.
Blessings to you!
Comment from Wendi
Time: March 18, 2009, 1:21 pm
ADORE this post. It is so very true – and such a raw honesty
Comment from Paco
Time: March 18, 2009, 5:08 pm
God has been showing me the exact same thing. Sometimes I get really impatient and wonder why things haven’t happened yet but then I have to repeat over and over to myself, “Love is patient, Love is patient, Love is patient…”
and that’s why it never fails.
Sometimes I forget that.
Comment from Traci
Time: March 18, 2009, 6:05 pm
awesomeness …
back to Home
Comment from kristiapplesauce
Time: March 18, 2009, 1:43 am
Wow. Daily I, for whatever reason sabotage bits and pieces of my life and the relationships within and so thank you for once again shedding some light on the need to surrender and release I need to unleash upon the the Holy One.