A balancing act.
God and I had a bit of a tough afternoon together, and I’m ashamed to tell you it was most definitely my fault. By early evening, I was determined to end the day on a better note, so I spent my entire evening — from 6 p.m. until now, a little after midnight, with Him.
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I read about Him in the bookstore across town. I sang about Him at a worship service for 20somethings. I laid in bed thinking about Him. I lit a candle, took a shower, listened to a song about how He loves me.
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Being single can be really hard. Sometimes I wish you could read my diary so you’d understand.
But being single also means there were no children to tuck back into bed tonight, no husband to hurry home to, no demands whatsoever on my personal time.
I didn’t have any of them to spend my time on tonight.
So I lavished it on Him instead.
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There’s a balance between wishing for something more and not ignoring what’s already here.
And He’s patient enough to teach me what that balance looks likes, one night at a time.
Posted: May 27th, 2009 under Uncategorized.
Comments: 13
Comments
Comment from Deidre
Time: May 27, 2009, 8:02 am
“There’s a balance between wishing for something more and not ignoring what’s already there” … the most brilliant thing you’ve ever written, Amy Beth!
Comment from wendi@Every Day Miracles
Time: May 27, 2009, 8:30 am
Wonderful post Amy Beth! SO much truth in your words.
I enjoy each post that you write! I don’t comment on each one – cause you know busy times with tucking in little ones and such – 
But I read every single one and really love them!
Comment from Michele
Time: May 27, 2009, 8:54 am
So true! I LOVE my hubby and kiddos, but I certainly do miss those special times I could focus all my time and attention on God….and what special times they were. God LOVES them. My heart kinda hurts thinking back to those times and missing them so much. Just different stages of life.
Comment from Rebecca
Time: May 27, 2009, 9:33 am
Such wise words… but know you aren’t alone. I’m a married woman whose husband is always busy – & having no children of my own, I feel the same way…
And women who are widowed & with kids that have left home & have families of their own…
I think there is a familiarity in your story to more people then you realize..
Comment from taylor
Time: May 27, 2009, 9:33 am
thank YOU. i must stop wasting my in-the-meantime opportunities.
Comment from Leslie Lauren
Time: May 27, 2009, 10:51 am
Last night was the third night in a row that I had every intention of spending time in my “prayer closet” but didn’t get around to it 
Thank you for the reminder of how important it is to spend quality time with Him!!!
Comment from Jason Collier
Time: May 27, 2009, 12:37 pm
I can definitely sympathize with you there.:) It is difficult to find the balance between desiring a family of your own and simply enjoying the life and journey that God presently has you on. I guess there is no other alternative than to presently wreck yourself with the unmatchless lover who is Jesus Christ! ..as if this should be alternative#2. Lord, help us to do this!
Comment from Jennifer
Time: May 27, 2009, 1:23 pm
I know the feeling…I need to find that balance, I know I need to, it has actually been weighing on my heart for awhile now, yet I do nothing about. I’m going to work really hard at spending more time with Him, then wishing he (my one-day-husband-to-be) would find me.
Comment from Kelly @ Love Well
Time: May 27, 2009, 1:43 pm
Amen and amen.
Comment from Kimber
Time: May 27, 2009, 1:58 pm
“There’s a balance between wishing for something more and not ignoring what’s already here”
I agree with Deidre, ONE of the best things you’ve written on your blog and something I really need to remember right now.
Comment from Tammie
Time: May 27, 2009, 2:24 pm
Indeed one of the best. Thank you for that tug on my perspective.
Comment from Julia
Time: June 3, 2009, 8:59 pm
“There’s a balance between wishing for something more and not ignoring what’s already here”. Again, so true. That is what I have been working on learning and doing this past year. Instead of sitting and wondering what life will be like with a boyfriend and who it’ll be, instead I am just enjoying times hanging out with my friends, knowing that the romance will be there eventually and until then, what’s the use of worrying?
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Comment from Cait
Time: May 27, 2009, 1:12 am
Amen!