My little corner.
I’m in a really strange season of life right now.
I’m changing, all the time. Actually it’s everything around me that’s changing: friendships are evolving and fading; relationships beginning and ending. When everything around you begins to change, it’s almost inevitable that you begin to change, too.
I’ve been quietly thinking for awhile about how what’s happening right now — I’m talking today, tomorrow, this week, this month, this year — is changing me forever. It’s hard to explain it to you, since I don’t share everything that’s happening in my life. All I know is that I’m smart enough to recognize that this may very well be one of the hardest, best seasons of my life and I need to protect it with everything in me.
So this is what I’m doing.
Early this morning, I quietly deleted my Twitter account and very soon I will temporarily deactivate my Facebook account. I’m not hiding; I’m trading. I’m going to take the time and focus I would usually put into those things and put it towards some other things in life instead. Yesterday I made an actual list of people I’d like to spend more love on, and in order to do it, I need to draw time and resources from some other place in my life.
I’m going to change the way I blog as well. After today, I’m closing comments on my posts indefinitely (I promise to open them up every so often, but it won’t be a regular thing). I know that a lot of people aren’t going to like it, but I think that, after you see how much it will free me up, you’ll like it more than you thought you might. Let me explain.
As it’s been so far, you could pretty much expect a new post every morning, Monday through Friday (as well as random Daily Peeks thrown in). Starting now, I’m going to blog regularly — but when I feel like it. So there will be posts in the morning, at night, whenever. When it’s time to write, I’m going to write.
I think you’ll see that I’ll be writing more frequently, more in-depth. I’ll still be writing in my diary, but as I go through the process of change, I think you’ll see more of that experience on the screen in front of you. In essence, this will become more like a diary, something I’ve felt a pull towards for awhile now. They’ll still be certain areas of my life I won’t write about, simply because it won’t be appropriate. Those things will remain in my personal diary; the rest will continue being here on my little pink corner of the world. The idea that a lot of you come to read each day makes me nervous; I think one of the benefits of doing it this way will be that it’ll help me keep pretending that it’s just you and me on here each night.
Like I said earlier, I’m certainly not hiding. I’ve updated my contact page with my new email address as well as my postal mail address since I get asked for it a lot. I’m still here, still able to be contacted when there’s something you need to tell me. You know that I love your emails; you know it.
So there you have it, cupcakes. Twitter isn’t hard to live without, but I can’t believe I’m giving up my blog comments and Facebook. This is going to be tough.
But I bet it’ll be good, too.
I’m on Day 32ish (lost count) of a Twitter and Facebook fast and even though I miss it at times life is definitely OK without it.
It’s often good to take a break and step back to reevaluate things…but not always easy to do. I applaud you for taking the steps necessary to allow this change in your life. I’m so excited for you and what God’s doing in you. He’s got great plans for you, I know it!
God is doing a wonderful work in your life. I am very happy for you.
Good for you! I blogged every day, and then just completely dropped off for several months. I actually felt bad about it at first, but it was so good.
Even though other people read your blog, your blog is for you. At least my blog is for me. It’s yours. Do what you need to do.
I just realized that comment was kind of super intense. So here are some more smileys for you.
Sounds like you’re making the right–but hard–choices. I look forward to reading more of what God is bringing you through!
You really got me with this sentence: “All I know is that I’m smart enough to recognize that this may very well be one of the hardest, best seasons of my life and I need to protect it with everything in me.”
I’m in one of those seasons right now and I have been begging God to get me out of it! You’re right. I should protect this time and relish it and get everything I can out of it. Thanks for challenging me.
And good for you, for doing what you need to do for yourself.
I’m so proud of you Amy Beth. I just am.
I, too, am in one of those seasons. It’s hard, but it’s good.
How do you deactivate your FB? I assume that means it still saves everything on there (i.e. friends, pictures, notes), but removes the temptation to hop on 3 trillion times a day. I’d like to do the same… I was doing pretty good about rarely getting on, but lately it’s been more frequent.
I look forward to more posts on this season you’re in!
I wanted to let you know I just found your blog last week, and I absolutely ADORE you. You are amazing and wonderful and beautiful, and I wish you and me and my daughter could hang out at Cracker Barrel.
Enjoy this season and all the changes that come with it.
God bless you!!
Amy
Congratulations! I’m proud of you for making these decisions. No two people are the same, and therefore no two lives are exactly the same. Like my mom used to always say to me “You take care of of yourself. I’ll take care of your brother.” Get all God has for you. Soak up every bit of this season. Praying for you.
oooo I’m excited, for you, and for me at getting to read your future blog posts.
Way to be purposeful. So often we just float through life, do things cause they are just there to do, and don’t take the time to figure out the purpose behind any of it.
Praying that these choices will bear much fruit in your life and in the lives of those around you.
It takes lots of courage and strength to know when you need a big change in your life. How exciting to know that you have a new path to travel on. I pray that whatever changes you make will bring so much more to your life. Your blog is just fabulous and I know that it will only get better!!
OK – you have my email if you need me – love you kiddo
Melissa
I am so excited for this season of your life Amy Beth. It’s hard but oh so good when God is working in us. It sounds like you are on the journey of a life time. I saw some of what my journey has been the last few months in your post. It’s funny to think of how hard I thought some of it was but now I just look back and I am so very amazed by our God.
You do what you need to do. Know that I am praying for you.
Praying for God’s direction, strength, and blessings to rain down on you as you seek out this new chapter of life in which He is bringing to light.
u go girl.
It’s awesome that you’re letting go… and letting God to his thing.
Not that Twitter and Facebook are bad things, but they are distractions…and it’s always good to clear out distractions especially when we’re trying to grow and change and have fulfilling relationships. Like you said, it’ll be hard, but Good! Praying for you… Keep writing and making us laugh. You’re awesome.
God has Amazing plans for you.
Well, then. For my last comment to you I would just like to say that I think you’re fabulous and I can’t wait to get to know you better on this new journey in your life. Good luck!!
I’m not sure if I’m supposed to be commenting on your “I’m closing comments.” post. But I just want to say that I very much respect this decision, and I look forward to hearing more about your changes. While sometimes it may seem strange for you to put your life in print for the world (and strange to me to read so much about someone I don’t even know), your blog has inspired me in many ways. I wish you only the best for this season of transition.
ABB, I’m so proud of you for taking care of you. Sometimes you just have to listen to Him and know that it’s all part of Him taking care of you too. Thanks for still sharing with us and enjoying some of the “anti-social” that being without FB and Twitter will allow you.
I’ll still be reading and praying for you. I know God is going to go deep in you and make you, even more, into His image! Your friends, etc. in your “real life” are so blessed to have you!
I like snail mail.
I’ll miss commenting on your page, but I will send emails. 
Looking forward to seeing a new side of you! You are being really smart and your relationships will flourish (as will you) because of that! Love you!
You are such a wise woman, AB. This will be good.
Good for you, Amy Beth! I’m cheering you on. First of all, I cannot believe you’ve commented back to me when I’ve left comments here. If you do that for everyone, which I suspect you have,then you NEED to play with some dolls (as mentioned in the post above this one about you and Mackenzie having some crazy fun doll play)–have some fun and take some down time.
Number two, I’ll be brief: yay!!! for getting off Facebook. I’ve never been on it and I have so much time. You will too and I’m glad for it. Join the underground movement, say no to Facebook! (I just made it a movement here and now…on your blog.)
Thirdly, I love your writing and I’m glad you made us, your readers, part of the pie chart (that one time in school you had to do the responsibilities on your plate thing). I love your blog and c.a.n.n.o.t. wait to see what God does in your life in this new season.
Since comments are closing soon, here are my top three things I need to say:
Keep the big hair posts coming
Thanks for making us a part of your lives
Your blog is ministry to me…fabulous ministry!
Can’t wait to see what happens next
Diva-Allie
I am glad you are staying around and I look forward to the future posts…
I read your blog because EVERY post shapes me in one way or another and it’s always positive.
KEEP up the good work!!
Good for you! I have really thought about doing a FB fast….just hadn’t gotten there yet…I’ll be doing one next weekend as I’m on a trip and have decide NOT to take the lap-top…we’ll see how it goes.
Back to you – As much as I like to hear about what’s going on in your life – it’s your life and you should keep those boundries firmly in place.
God bless you, Amy Beth!
love from Guam